People…

The last two weeks have been very hard for me…
See about five years ago I started a five year transition of myself…
I was one of the most insecure people you ever met…
And I walked through five years of soul searching and dealing with these insecurities…
I started a new job about two weeks ago…
I love my job…I love what I do…
I have just been going about my own business doing my job…
All the while not knowing until recently that people were attacking me behind the scenes…
Making it look like I am a gossip and a loose tongue…
Almost really hurting a really good friendship…
How did it happen…
Words that came out of mouth were twisted and contorted…

And so this entire week I can’t even talk at all…have any conversation without wondering if I am going to get the brunt end of it later…
And I am facing insecurities all over again…
So frustrating…
I am a secure individual…but sometimes when faced with these circumstances I crumble like I did this week…

So acknowledging that everyone is not your friend…and you can’t trust people wholeheartedly…
I move on to next week…

I will hold my head high…
And keep to myself…

I do not want to deal with this again…